The Alpha Chose Me

"I'm sorry". I whispered. "I shouldn't have said that".

"Don't apologise sweetheart". My gran spoke. "It's a lot to take in and digest and it'll take time to process but take all the time you need because I want us all to be a family again, Leah. I regret a lot of things in life, but the one thing I regret the most is how I acted and how I treated you".

"Can I ask why you just up and left?".

"I wasn't in the right frame of mind. I thought you'd be better off without me. I knew this was all going to come to light one day and I wasn't sure I was going to be able to handle it".

"Handle telling me the truth?". I frowned.

She nodded. "I wasn't sure how you were going to react. I admit I was selfish, and I should have been honest from the start with everyone, but I didn't want to hurt anyone".

"So, you pushed me away to stop me from finding out the truth?".

"I know what it sounds like Leah, but I didn't mean for any of this to happen the way it did".

"I know". I sighed.

I couldn't give her a hard time, that wouldn't be fair, and she really didn't deserve it.

She was trying to make things right, trying to make peace with everyone.

Me losing my head about the decisions she made wasn't going to do anyone any good. It wasn't going to change anything that happened. We were all here to move on from it and move past it.

"We just want to put this behind us Leah and I hope you can forgive me for everything I've put you through".

There it was. I felt the hairs on the back of my neck stand. I didn't want to cause her pain or stress. Putting it behind us once and for all was for the best. This was her past; her story and I couldn't judge her for anything she did.

"I want that as well". I spoke.

I showered and changed into my pjs. I was sat on our bed watching tv eating a bag of chips. We were still invited to dinner tonight but if I'm being honest, I wasn't sure I wanted to know anymore.

Did it really matter? Was it going to make a difference to my life now? No, it wasn't. Maybe my aunt Claire was right. The past should stay in the past, I wasn't going to benefit from putting my gran through telling me anymore.

Sighing I ran a hand down my face.

"Babe you, okay?". Jake asked coming back into the room from our bathroom.

"Yeah". I nodded. "No". I sighed. "I feel I'm doing something wrong, for some reason I feel guilty".

"About what?". He frowned.

"For how I acted with my gran, for making her go through her past when it's obvious it brings up hard times".

"I thought she wanted to tell you?".

"Yeah". I sighed. "But I'm not sure I want to know anymore".

"Then tell her that". He shrugged. "If you want to move on from it then do so. The past isn't going to make a difference to your life going forward babe. Think about it, your dads here, your gran and George are back, and they all want to be part of your life". He was right. This didn't need to go on any longer than it already has. Tonight, at dinner it was time to start a fresh and move on as a family.

"Do you think I've made a big deal over this for nothing?". I asked.

"Why would you think that?". He asked sitting on the other side of the bed.

I shrugged.

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"You wanted to know what happened, you were curious about your family and where you came from. You know you can always ask when you want to and I'm sure they'll tell you".

"I thought I wanted to air everything out, to know the truth about every last detail but now-...". I paused. "She really didn't have it easy, and I blamed her. I blamed her for things she couldn't control and things she did because she thought it was for the best. If anything, I feel terrible".

"You have nothing to feel terrible about Leah and I'm sure your gran would hate the way you're feeling about all of this. Talk to her tonight and tell her you're ready to move on".

Everything seemed so easy when he said it but there was nothing stopping this from ending here.

"I don't even know why I was, so hell bent on knowing. I should be happy that they want to be part of my life again, shouldn't I?".

"Do you want them in your life is what you should be asking yourself". He spoke.

"I do". I nodded.

"Then it's settled. Tell them tonight where you stand and what you want to happen. I'm sure you hold the cards, and they'll do anything you wish".noveldrama

"I guess you're right".

"Now how about a walk in the forest to get some fresh air?". He asked.

"Yeah". I smiled. "I'd like that".